Holiday Blues

This Holiday has been kind of an downer. Tomorrow is Christmas and while I'm never excited about the gifts, I am almost always looking forward to the quality family time.

This year will be different.

For one my parents have officially retired and at the behest of some of white America, they have moved back to Africa.

Very happy for them. However, they have left there SINGLE baby girl behind. So as much as I dearly love my siblings, I sometimes feel like such a 3rd wheel. Why? Because they have their own families or boos to bring with them.

This year, with my sister going to her in laws, my one brother is traveling. Leaving me to be 3rd wheel to my other brother and his wife. Luckily they ain't going no where, otherwise I would REALLY not have a Christmas.

Yes, join my pity party. :/ Bah Humbug.

Is A Masters the Answer?

Decision time is approaching at a rapid pace here in Korea. To stay or not to stay? I have been exploring quite a few options back in the states and abroad. Recently I have been looking at a lot of positions back home. Many that require a masters degree. Now I have a bachelors in fine arts. The degree that I chose to attain is very much what you make it. Being an artist forces you to be creative at all times and to really sell yourself. However, the positions in my field are split pretty much 50/50 when it comes to the level of degree you need. But of course the desired pay I would like requires that I have a MFA or even a PhD behind my name.

Okay so here is my issue. I am on the study grind to pay off my student loans. I am on track with them being completely paid off by the time I turn 30. This is very important to me. I don't believe in having to pay for school my entire life. As a matter of fact I believe that everyone should fill out a questionaire before college. It should have some realistic figures as to how much you will get paid with your degree. Then you should write a realistic income level that you hope to reach based on those figures. And THEN once you reach that desired income THAT IS WHEN you began paying off student loans! Of course this is unrealistic but in my imagination it sounds grand!

Therefore I am very hesitant about going back to school. I know it would be an asset in my career but it would not be an asset for my financial goals. The only way I would seriously consider it is if a company was paying for it or I got an awesome scholarship opportunity. (I am currently investigating any program that offers significant assistance with grad school funding.)

A lot of bups I know are taking the higher education road. However, I think it is very possible that I can attain the level of success I want without it. I just have to work a LOT harder to attain it.

I know this varies with different fields but I am just curious. Bups as far as education is concerned what did you feel was best for you personally? What made you seek the level of education that you attained or are currently trying to attain? Is a Masters or a Doctorate essential?

GO GET TESTED

World AIDS Day!

Go Get Tested.

We all know we should get tested. It is my hope we are all having safe sex. I am having the SAFIEST SEX! Cus I am claiming Celibacy right now! But no matter if you using a jimmy hat or not, the WORST part to an HIV test is the WAIT for the Results.

Time and time again, you use protection. You "trust" your partners. You may even trade AIDS/HIV results before you boogie. You do everything right. But then you hear ish like 1 out of 2 people in your city got AIDS. You start thinking of What if scenarios. What if you was that one person to use a condom, and catch it? You start thinking every partner burned you. You want to sue Trojan for false advertisement. Your stomach gets all flappy. You get depressed. If someone says the wrong word to you, you could break out in tears.


Then you get to praying.

"Dear God. Please let me be negative. I know I shouldn't being having Sex. I know I was wrong. If you make me negative, I will never have sex again."

We say this prayer, hear our Negative results. And get right back to EFFinng.


Shakes my Head.